goodbye my lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

goodbye my lover - james blunt

a thousand miles

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass and I’m home bound

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Just making my way down through the crowd

And I need you

And I miss you

And I now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky

Do you think time would pass me by

‘cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles

If I could just see you

Tonight

It’s always times like these when I think of you

And I wonder if you ever think of me

‘cause everything’s is so wrong and I don’t belong

Living in your precious memories

‘cause I need you

And I miss you

And I now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky

Do you think time would pass me by oh

‘cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles

If I could just see you

Tonight

And I…., I…..

Don’t want to let you know

I…. I….

Drown in your memory

I…. I….

Don’t want to let this go

I…. I don’t

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass and I’m home bound

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Just making my way down trough the crowd

And I still need you

And I still miss you

And I now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky

Do you think time would pass us by

‘cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles

If I could just see you

If I could fall into the sky

Do you think time would pass me by

‘cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles

If I could just see you

If I could just hold you

Tonight

a thousand miles - vanessa carlton

March 11, 2012

this day is the day when i become single again. finally i let you go. even though i really don't want, i have to do it. 

i can still remember all memories of us and i want to say thank you for them. you gave me love for a while, you gave me experiences i have never done and you gave me also hurt i have never felt.

maybe it's the best way, especially for me. i don't need to worry about you anymore.

for the last time i just wish the best for you.

thank you for being mine and goodbye

one more chance

do you think that success will come to you easily? and are you sure that you deserve enough to gain a praise? i don't think so if you do something without any hurdles.
everyone is having process of life. you start from beginning to end, from baby to adult, from kindergarten to university. everything needs process and the process is not always running smoothly but sometimes there are also full of obstacles. people are afraid to face all of barriers in their life and always complaining when encountering obstacles or failures. the problem is they don't realize that the odds will lead them to get success.
when you're fired or rejected by one institution or maybe a company, you must be feeling sad, definitely sad, and so do i. i felt down and upset when i, for several times rejected by companies because of things like height and weight (it's stupid i think if they reject me just because of those simple things), major (it's little bit weird for me if companies determine certain majors for management trainee which the applicants will sit in the class and get lessons), no experiences (how can i get experiences if companies don't give a chance for fresh graduates to explore their ability).
i know i may not give up easily. i believe that it's just His plan to tell me that i have to learn more and more and of course from the failures. i tried to apply again and again for many positions in many companies. i realize i can learn many things from every tests or interviews even I failed. for me, failures means He will give me one more chance to gain another success.

metro mini 72

siapa yang tidak tahu metromini 72? rasanya sebagian besar warga Jakarta sudah sangat familiar dengan bus kota warna merah jurusan blok M - lebak bulus ini. mungkin kalau dipikir-pikir bus kota ini hanya bus kota biasa, sama seperti bus kota lainnya. namun, kali ini metromini 72 sedikit banyak dapat memberikan inspirasi dalam sebuah kehidupan.

pernah lihat bagaimana supir metromini mengendarai busnya? ya, tentu saja banyak yang ugal-ugalan, mungkin saja ketika bus tersebut ingin belok kanan atau kiri hanya supir bus tersebut dan Tuhan yang tau. pindah jalur pun tanpa pikir panjang, ada ruang sedikit langsung buru-buru diambil. apabila dalam keadaan macet, bus ini juga selalu berusaha pindah-pindah jalur mencari jalur yang setidaknya mengalami pergerakan agar bisa segera melewati kemacetan itu. selain itu, jika supir atau kondektur bus melihat penumpang berdiri di pinggir jalan sebelah kiri, bus kota ini pun tidak segan-segan langsung mengambil jalur kiri (sampai kendaraan lain harus berhenti mendadak) walaupun sedang berada di jalur paling kanan.

kalau hanya dilihat dari tingkah laku bus kota yang satu ini, pasti yang ada hanya perasaan jengkel yang tidak ada habisnya. namun, marilah mencoba melihat hal ini dari sisi yang lain, melihat kehidupan melalui cara bekerjanya metromini 72.

terkadang hidup itu harus dijalani layaknya metromini 72. seringnya bus kota ini pindah jalur yang terlihat seenaknya pun dapat memberikan pelajaran bahwa dalam hidup ini jangan pernah menyia-nyiakan kesempatan, walaupun kesempatan itu hanya sekecil jarak antara 2 mobil yang sedang terjebak macet di jalan. dalam keadaan seperti itu pun metromini 72 tetap memaksa untuk bisa masuk jalur tersebut. jadi, tidak ada alasan kan untuk menyerah walaupun kesempatan itu hampir terlihat nihil untuk dicapai?

kebut-kebutan antar bus kota di jalan pun bisa menawarkan pelajaran yang berharga. bergerak dengan kecepatan tinggi juga perlu dilakukan agar dapat segera sampai tujuan. sama seperti metromini, setiap individu memiliki target dalam mencapai sesuatu. untuk mencapainya harus mampu bergerak secepat mungkin agar tidak tersusul dengan pesaing yang lain, bukan?

bagaimana dengan bus kota yang tidak segan-segan langsung mengambil jalur kiri (sampai kendaraan lain harus berhenti mendadak) walaupun sedang berada di jalur paling kanan? itu berarti bahwa dalam mencapai satu tujuan, fokus adalah kunci utamanya. walaupun banyak rintangan yang harus dihadapi, tetapi jika tetap fokus pada target, pasti cepat atau lambat target itu dapat diraih.

sebagai metro mini yang besar dan tinggi memang cukup menguntungkan untuk diikuti dari belakang karena memiliki pandangan jauh ke depan sehingga dapat memikirkan sebuah strategi bagaimana caranya dapat tetap terus jalan di tengah kemacetan, namun, hati-hati. metro mini itu penuh kelabilan. ketika bus kota ini tidak menemukan jalur yang pas, pasti langsung sesegera mungkin kembali ke jalur semula atau mencari jalur yang lain. fenomena ini menjelaskan bahwa hidup ini tidak ada yang sempurna. dari segala hal baik yang dimiliki pasti ada juga sisi buruk di dalamnya. jadi, tugas tiap individulah untuk memilih mana yang patut ditiru dan mana yang harus diabaikan.

dari sebuah hal kecil yang biasanya dikeluhkesahkan saja bisa memberikan pelajaran berharga dalam kehidupan, bagaimana dengan hal besar yang ada di depan mata?

from this moment on

"I do swear that I'll always be there
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better for worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on"

from this moment on - shania twain

-yeah, you're the answer to my prayers from up above-

apa itu sempurna?

setiap orang pasti tahu dan sadar bahwa di dunia ini tidak ada yang sempurna. tapi kenapa mereka masih terus mencari kesempurnaan itu? Itu karena mereka tidak pernah puas dengan apa yang sudah mereka miliki. mereka selalu merasa kekurangan. sebenarnya tidak ada yang salah dengan berusaha menyempurnakan apa yang sudah dimiliki tetapi bukan dengan ambisi.

tidak ada salahnya mulai belajar bersyukur atas apa yang kalian miliki saat ini. memang tidak sempurna, tetapi sadarilah bahwa masih banyak orang yang bahkan tidak mempunyai kesempatan untuk memilikinya. ketika kalian berpikir bahwa di ujung jalan sana masih ada hal yang lebih baik, ketahuilah bahwa tidak ada yang bisa menjamin itu. terkadang ketika kalian terlalu sibuk mencari hal yang lebih baik, kalian tidak sadar bahwa apa yang kalian tinggalkan adalah yang terbaik. sadarilah, yang terbaik untuk mereka belum tentu yang terbaik untuk kalian.

seorang bijak bercerita tentang kesempurnaan. dia meyakini bahwasannya kesempurnaan itu benar adanya, yaitu ketika manusia mampu mensyukuri dan menerima sesuatu dengan baik dan lapang dada atas apa yang mereka miliki. dengan kata lain, semua akan terlihat sempurna ketika keikhlasan sudah berbicara.